The Last Good Day.

“There’s no way of knowing that your last good day is Your Last Good Day. At the time, it is just another good day.”  That line in itself from TFiOS is something I’ve pondered on the past week since I’ve driven almost twenty-four hours in just a few days. I spent time with my best friends in Albuquerque, enjoyed the New Mexican atmosphere where I gave my last words to my grandmother in a chapel over the phone. I received the news that she passed away that next morning, then drove to Odessa where our family home is, drove onto many other locations for the burial, then my brothers home in Dallas, then onto my hometown. Its been a whirlwind of events, and family which led me thinking about this one quote.

My first night in Odessa consisted of taking down our family home, and dividing out little things before the lawyers come in to appraise the estate, or whatever. I just sat there, and didn’t know how my mom remained so calm (she had been living there since she was five) and this was merely a home we came to for the holidays and summers as grandchildren. Many exciting Christmas’s, Easters, dress up parties, historical story telling, and family gatherings happened in this home for me. We were always moving as kids, but this home remained the exact same since nineteen sixty-four. Now the green carpet will be torn up, the vintage furniture will be hauled out, and all the family pictures removed from the walls. I tried to think of the last time I spent with my grandma, but even then the house was in the process of being packed up, and there were home nurses invading privacy. But still while gathering her Christmas decor its like I could hear her rummaging through the house with us yelling at herself, and us. Its weird. You see, I can’t remember the last good day, or the good family event. Why? Cause at the time, it was just normal, it was like any other.

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I never thought about our family Christmas’s, or my brother moving to a different city until it stopped. Now its an act of hoarding any little time I get with my brother, who I now have to drop off at the airport a couple of days later; He used to live right across town. Christmas’s are complicated, and an act of making appearances on each side of the family. Getting everyone together for the holiday feels like trying to schedule a meeting for the United Nations Council. It’s not tradition always, its ever-changing life now.

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Christmas’s that were large, and together? They are merely memories on a videotape. My brother living in town? Now its just stories exchanged between he and I before he leaves. The last good day; the lasting memories. Why do you choose to live a miserable life? Why do you choose to make decisions that don’t empower you, but hold you back? What will you have to look back on and cherish when you are too old to barely remember? People wonder why I’ve developed such a chase for adventure, to want to DO things, and create things, because of this! You can’t just pause life and say, “Wait, I’m collecting memories here!” No. It’s your job to create them, making them wonderful, and remember them because of that simply and beautiful line. You never know when life ends, or the opportunity. Put your phone down, your barriers, and try to remember the good days before they become your last.

-haley.

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Song of the week is “Christmas Time is Here” from Vince Guaraldi. Enjoy.

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Four Years.

I was only fifteen years old while watching my freshman English teacher scribble inside of a John Lennon book that she decided to give to me while repeating, “Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans.” She said this often, and as fascinated as I was with the quote, I had no grasp of the concept. I mean, doesn’t every fifteen year old know exactly what they are doing with their life? I did. Mrs. Hepler had spent that year critiquing short stories I wrote in private, and we continually bonded over the Beatles, writing, and feminism. She saw something I guess, and felt the need to repeatedly say that quote to me. Its been seven years since I put that book on my shelf, and since I’ve sat in a desk in Mrs. Hepler’s class.

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You see, my life was all planned out at one point. I was graduated, eighteen, had a fabulous relationship, and even though I was walking into a hospital at five in the morning well aware of what was about to happen…I still thought I was in full control. I remember the nurse having me sign “death papers” in case anything happened. That sting of reality hit hard because I had been eighteen maybe two weeks. I mean, werent my parents supposed to be signing these? I recall the same nurse taking literally eight tries to start my IV, and feeling the frustration of my family standing around telling me their goodbyes before I was wheeled off. But I had to remind myself that this was surgery, I would be asleep soon, and it was all no big deal. The masked female telling me that I had to be awake took another hack into my control theory, and soon I watched it crumble when they injected me, and slowed my breathing. I felt a giant tube squeeze its way through my throat, and watched a cord weave its way into my beating heart on a glowing screen. Doctors chatted around me in professional gibberish that I was too tired to comprehend, and soon I was being yelled at because I was losing consciousness, and bleeding out. Then with blinding lights flipped on, and nothing but silence filling this tiled blue room, I heard my doctor say, “Its your lungs.” My control was shattered.

At first I was told I was physically dying, and then I was just mad. Later, I felt like mentally I was dying, and wanted to actually physically die along with my broken heart, and my life was a collage of unidentifiable direction, misleading information, and trying to fight for control. I’ve been PHighting for a long time. I’ve taken pills, had more tubes shoved into arteries, scans of my organs, and oxygen crammed up my nose. Four years has gone by quick especially when you are told you only have two years left to live. At times I really thought I would rather take my own life, than to continue to fight this tiring disease.

The blue prints in which I thought I had planned my life out perfectly went through the shredder a long time ago. At one point, you just have to sit back and think, “what the hell happened?” But this weird, and unpredictable road has been painful, but as I’ve said before, there is an odd beauty in pain. I saw this John Lennon book collecting dust on my shelf the other day, opened it and read a little message from Mrs. Hepler. I smiled, and soon everything fell exactly into place. I’m still me…but my life really did happen despite my other plans.

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Four years strong.

This is dedicated to Tricia Hepler, who without, I probably would have a ridiculous amount of comma’s on this page. In fact, I bet I still do. What a fantastic person, writer, and general artist you are. Thank you.

-haley.

Get Out of That Box!

I may not be able to pinpoint how I feel exactly lately, but I do know at least one emotion that has been consistently pumping through my veins all week; Anger. So much freaking anger just completely surrounds my world with situations, and with people…mainly how they decide to treat other people.

I follow this lovely vlogging couple on practically all social media (Anna-lee and Jesse) because they are adorable, smart, and creative. While scrolling through Jesse’s Instagram one of my other sleepless nights, I saw a picture of two dogs in which the caption was “retard club.” The dogs were being dogs, and Jesse was being funny. Jesse and Anna-lee both are constantly in the public’s eye, talking to people, giving advice, and successfully just showing who they are. Back to the picture. I noticed a ridiculous amount of people commenting that they were now unfollowing because of his word choice, how awful he was, he needed to be a better person, delete the picture…blah blah blah. Then you see Jesse’s reply to all of this. “It’s like you have to edit yourself until you are plain and boring to please everyone.” This stood out like a slap in the face because it’s what I’ve been wanting to scream all this week. I’m always on Pinterest (um, yea) and see all these lovely artsy quotes saying how much we need to be patient, not judge people, be ourselves, live life to the fullest, and live happily ever after. In a world so full of these thoughts that “be yourself, and screw everyone else!” we sure are criticizing every little bitty thing anyone ever does. We can’t show cleavage (you might get offended that your husband looked), we can’t take selfies (how awful that we love our makeup, or awesome beard that day!), we can’t support abortion (you have different religious views that you need to push onto us), we can’t use certain words, we can’t love the people we want to love, and we just can’t exist it seems like. I’m literally editing, touching up, walking on eggshells to make sure that I fit into society’s perfect little acceptable box. That box is an illusion.

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After editing me, changing, feeling self-conscious, watching everything I say and do….I just give up. I give up, and choose to stop doing that because I am respecting me. It’s about respect, and it’s about kindness for all of you people in general. From what I hear for some of you Jesus followers (I know some pretty awesome ones) but I hear those are called Fruits of the Spirit in the Bible. Start working on them. There is a difference in an actual, horrible, and offensive person versus someone just trying to be a happy human. You don’t have to agree with what I do, what words I say, what I choose to put on my body, what selfies I take, or my spiritual views…but I would like you to respect me, and stop asking me to edit myself down for your personal viewing.

That is all.

T-Shirt orders are being shipped out all this week! 🙂 If you want to order your Just Breathe Tee, email me to see if your size is available. Also, follow Anna-lee and Jesse on Youtube! They are so fantastic.

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-haley.

Thank Y’all.

Finally, I am home. I have nothing left but exhaustion, and happiness. This was such a perfect trip! I wanted to thank my readers, and the PH Association for making it possible. This was an absolute highlight of my life. Most of you followed on Facebook, and Instagram, and thank you for that! I am so glad you got to see the events unfold online. To those who I finally met in person, that was such an uplifting experience. As most of you know, I was nominated for the Young PHA’s Outstanding Citizen Award which still baffles me. I watched so many other PH’ers get on stage to accept their awards, only to hear about all the amazing things they’ve done. They are some PHenomenal people doing PHenomenal things! It was hardcore proof of the importance of connecting with other people who are affected by the same disease as you. Get involved! It will change things. Congrats to all of those who accepted an award, got to attend conference, had an amazing time, branched out, and learned. Everyone has done amazing job in the PH community.

As I’m coming up on my fourth year anniversary of being diagnosed, I’m reflecting heavily on my original feelings towards this disease. How absent I was, blank, unresponsive, and I possessed not an ounce of fight. When you are diagnosed with anything it’s really starting a challenge of overcoming yourself. That sounds easy; you know you better than anyone else. Except, most people leave out one huge detail about a diagnosis. You are no longer you anymore. From day one, you are wearing a completely new skin, adapting to what feels like a completely new body, treatments, a new circle of people (or survivors) and everything you thought you once knew about yourself is dust. Well, some of it. Now you will be tested on your mental, and emotional strength, how far will you go to physically overcome, and to one day make it to an infinitive finish line called “survivor.” Overcoming yourself is not easy; it’s the hardest thing you will go through. In the meantime remember, that mental dominates physical. If you can understand, comprehend, and get a handle on this mentally…your body will catch up. Mind over matter. I had to dominate my own self, swallow pride, not listen to certain thoughts, cut certain people out, let doctors in, and really figure out what it is I exactly needed. It really is possible to pull yourself out of that dark place. The only thing keeping you down is you. Look at yourself and heavily evaluate what is going on, and what needs to be changed. It took almost four years exactly to get somewhat on the right track. You will fall off every now and then, or take a wrong turn. I struggle mentally, emotionally, and physically. This is a lifetime disease, and until we can get that cure, it will be a lifetime battle. Find the will to live, and hold onto it. There is beauty in this struggle. Who knew I would get to wear glitzy shoes, and accept a ridiculously heavy glass award, meet fans, take pictures, stay in a four star hotel, have people ask me questions, and have my face and story all over the world because of PH? Quite frankly, I’m thankful.

Train your mind to see the good. Mind over matter. Thank you to everyone for showing me the good side of PH! Its been a trip. Pictures are below! Thank y’all again.

-haley.

Instagram! @haleyann92

Facebook.com/phenomenalhaley

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Fashion Friday Favorites!

Its FRIDAY y’all! Get happy! Friday Favorites are something I love doing, but when is the last time I did fashion friday? Today you’re getting two in one. How special! Friday favorites are existent to encourage you to branch out, and try new things. That makes life just a little more fun. Fashion Fridays are geared to help us with our bodies, and things we might be suffering from as patients. Onward!

FRIDAY FAVORITES

 

-Music

How did y’all know?! Of course its the Fault in Our Stars soundtrack! The directors, and whoever else did an amazing job with music just like the movie itself. This is something I was most worried about because I am a huge music person. I wanted my already favorite movie ever to have a fabulous soundtrack with unknown songs. They are so fantastic! I’m having a hard time deciding my favorite, but overall, I cant wait to have this on Vinyl.

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-Makeup

I’ve invested in so much makeup lately, I do not know where to start. I think the more you experiment and get used to makeup, the more crazy you get. LimeCrime is probably my favorite to glance at, and finally I ordered some of their product the other day. They have extremely bright colors (even PH colored lipstick!) and I ordered the Black Velvet matte lipstick. BLACK?! Yes, black. I’m extremely excited to wear this “color” and test the high quality of this brand. So far, its had fantastic reviews. I’ve checked my mailbox fifty times already this morning since its supposedly out for delivery. I’ll post follow-up photos on Instagram if you are curious!

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-Book

Lord have mercy y’all. I’m in the process of trying to read like five books at one time. I’m really trying to get through An Abundance of Katherines by John Green, because anything by that man is amazing. I’m also fixing to start something called Never Let Me Go that a friend suggested. I also want to read Perks of Being a Wallflower, and Empire of the Summer Moon. Thats my ridiculously long reading list right now!

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-Clothing– FASHION FRIDAY – FAT ANKLE SUMMER FASHION

Honestly, like with makeup, I’ve bought a ton of new clothes lately. This whole new trend with these flowy bohemian printed pants is absolute perfect summer fashion. No restrictive jeans, no shorts so you can hide your legs if you want, and if you’re swollen they hide your ankles! However, these printed pants are a little tricky. Unless you are a literal stick, you HAVE to try them on. They can hug in all the wrong areas almost 100 percent on the time. The super stretch spandex ones (mainly found at boutiques) will hug every crevice on your body, and out line every area. Beware. You really want to find the pants made of actual cloth, like cotton, and what not. I’ve only found one pair that hugs my legs in a good way, fits comfy, doesn’t outline weird areas, BUT are ridiculously long so I’m about to cut them. They are by Billabong, and were worth the investment. So if you are looking to spice up your wardrobe, remain comfortable, and hide some summer Edema, look into these lovely things! Pair with a neutral top that is not baggy, or printed. Remember, ALWAYS try them on!

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-Show

I jumped on the Meth bandwagon…and started watching Breaking Bad. I wasnt too impressed at first, but it definitely has me hooked! If only I was making that kind of money to pay off my medical bills. It is a little rough, but its the kind of twisted that you end up swallowed in. Plus Aaron Paul? Um…Yeah, B*tch! (You’ll get that later.)

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-Indy

Words cannot describe how excited I am to experience a new state, city, and to meet PH patients in person! It’s insane to me how the same month TFiOS comes out, I’m going to the exact city it took place in, and filmed! Lord have mercy. I encourage everyone to travel as much as they can. Make the arrangements, and stay safe while traveling! It’s not worth to sit at home. It’s a beautiful life; get out and see it before it’s over.

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-Nail Polish

It may be summer, but I still can’t get into the swing of a bright polish. I’ve been wearing a lot of white, and just bought a new Essie polish titled, “Bahama Mama.” It sounds like summer, but it’s actually a pretty dark shade as well. I know, I know…but I don’t care.

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-Movie

No comment.

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-Accessory

I’ll just throw it out there that Texas is the best, hahahaha. Besides that fact, the state shape itself is just awesome and the most identifiable. I’ve been searching for a tiny little Texas necklace for a while now, and finally found one yesterday in a  small town boutique. Its perfect! You can shop on Etsy if need be to invest in your state pride.

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It was a somewhat short Friday Favorites, and Fashion Friday all rolled into one! Enjoy your Friday loves! I’m going to continue to drink coffee, listen to the TFiOS soundtrack, and repair myself emotionally. There is a reason its the number one movie in America right now! See some of y’all at conference. GET EXCITED!

-haley.

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Facebook.com/phenomenalhaley

 

Freedom; Oxygen of the Soul.

Lately I’ve been catching myself saying, “I can’t do that because…” , “Lord knows what would happen if…” , and blah blah blah. It hit me how much I’m limiting myself because of my dysfunctional lungs. I don’t even try, I just instantly throw on the brakes. Therefore, I’m always on the sidelines, I’m always watching, I’m always wishing that I could do such fun stuff…screw it. I’m doing it. Its JUNE! Its summer! It’s a beautiful time of year to crawl outside of your cave, and look into things you’ve never considered. Am I suggesting a running with the bulls? Of course not. But why, why do we make our priority in life to just survive it?

We really tend to find ourselves existing within the limited walls of our disease. We make excuses, we follow doctors strict orders, we take those pills and endure these side effects, and we are therefore living in a disabled rutt. Sounds messy doesn’t it? Thats because it is. This is part where doctors usually want to strangle me. The whitecoats (doctors) are used to seeing the worst of the worst, and prescribing the up most strictest care. They have to, and I respect it. But they really do forget about the soul on the inside of the defective body. I’m not letting my shell rule my life; end of story. I will take care of my shell so that I may continue to have a life, and I will be careful with my shell, but I will not enter the twilight zone of getting so lost in the care for this disabled shell to keep living only to realize I have no life. Make sense yet?

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I’m getting better at taking my pills. Stay on top of your meds, endure the stupid side effects, and communicate with your doctor.

My oxygen goes where I go, just in case. Yours should be a travel companion too, despite whether you wear it all the time or not.

I plan for the worst, and hope for the best. You should be doing that as well. Think through what you’re doing, and the possible outcomes.

Educate yourself. The more you know about lungs, blood pressures, hearts, medication do’s and dont’s, the absolute better.

Know your body. Truly know what you can and cannot do. I go into over 10,000 elevation every summer because I know I’ll have no issues. What happens if I do? I have all my meds, oxygen, BP&O2 monitors, and I know where the nearest hospital is.

Do what you love. Try everything in small quantities, and don’t push your limits.

There is so much more to life than just surviving it.

-haley.

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Patience is Prettier.

Happy June everyone! I can’t believe I’ve finally made it to this month. Exactly two weeks until I leave for Indy! This is a very busy time, and I wanted to thank everyone for their patience. Not only is attitude a very tricky, and contagious concept, but I think patience is as well. How can I put this…

I am not just some college kid lounging around, going out with friends, and blowing things off. My average day consisted of getting up in the morning, working at the school until around three, then from there going straight to my other job till around eleven o’clock at night, coming home, trying to catch up on blog things, but most of the time I fell asleep. I am a very busy person. Now that school is out, I’ll have little opportunities and small windows of time to get things completed. In basic words; I push myself enough. If you push me, I will push back.

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I’ve encountered some pushiness, and non patience. I understand frustration, but I will not be understanding in these situations. Right now I’m lucky enough to remember to make a blog post! So, patience. This is something that is quickly trickling out of our economy. We have smart phones that process things faster than computers, we have supermarkets with two-hundred cashier lanes open so you can get through faster, we have fast food drive throughs, and we want everything done now. We’re living a life where we don’t really have to be patient. So when the time comes to wait a whole 30 seconds for the internet to load, driving around a wreck, or waiting in line for a spray tan, we FLIP. Patience is a fabulous thing to exhibit. To hear the excuses of “I’m a paying customer” shows me that you value money over respecting another person. To hear “its their job” is another example of the non-respect you have for another person. When you are understanding, show compassion, and take time to evaluate the situation rather than just your feelings on your side of the story it begins to get easier for everyone involved. The other day I waited almost forty-five minutes on just my food. I got a little questionable of what was going on, but was not upset with my waitress, or cooks at all. I was once a waitress that lost an order too. This is life, full of thrown together mishaps, and somehow (maybe) we make it out alive.

Please look around and acknowledge the humans around you. Exactly that, they are human. Patience was built into your body. Start exercising, and practicing it more; I’m having to work on it too.

Thank you again for everyone’s patience.

Congrats to Karla, our Hazel Grace contest winner! TFiOS comes out FRIDAY! Our song of the week is Icarus by White Hinterland. Perfect, breathable summer song.

-haley.

Attitude Adjustments.

Attitude; Thats such a negative word to me. In fact, I just had discussions with some of my fifth grade girls, and how they are over loaded with it. I make them think that because they are growing up they need to learn how to drop this so-called attitude, but who am I kidding? It only gets worse with age sometimes.

This simple little moody word has a lot of power behind it. It’s a force of destruction, a glimmer of hope, and a knife in someone’s heart. When you step back, really look at yourself, and evaluate how you communicate with people you start to see that without actions, you’re left with your words only. Your ONLY communication. Your attitude; It can take a life of its own, and overpower you if it wants. What vibe are you giving off? How are you communicating? Whats overpowering you?

I’ve seen so much attitude lately that it completely blocks off any actual communication. People just don’t want to listen, they just want to be mad. They want to jam their words into people’s feeble ears, and make their points boldly. In return, you were never heard. I’ve seen humans with such bad attitudes that the oxygen in their nose is no longer beneficial because spiritually, and emotionally they just cant believe in themselves, or others. I’ve always said you had to drop barriers to let the good overcome you. Nothing will happen with a door shut. Drop it, open a door, and open your ears. Listening to others more than  you speak, being patient more than being forceful, looking for improvement rather than making points is so much more helpful.

Attitude; it can be a lifesaver. Literally. I had such a bad one about my disease. I really wanted to just exist within it rather than fight it. Developing, listening, improving really did change things. It changed my outlook, it changed my attitude. I became a teacher instead of a cop. I felt like instructing, and listening more than I did pointing out error. Some of us even had to make attitude adjustments about wearing our oxygen, me included. My attitude saved my life. Step back, and really evaluate yours this week. Is it worth changing? Because you are worth it.

Congrats to Karla, our contest winner! Thank you to everyone who submitted a “Hazel Grace” picture! They are all so beautiful. Our song of the week is So Many Details by Toro y Moi. Enjoy!

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-haley.

Trapped; Pulmonary Hypertension Awareness Day.

Ahhhh, we meet again. I am alive, I don’t know if I’m well, but finally I’m making a brief post. The past few weeks have not been easy. Working fifty plus hours a week, running marketing for a local youth group, and bouncing back from surgery leaves little to no free time or sanity. Thank you to those who were actually patient with me. On top of that I’ve been wrapping up my Lantos project that I did with the Pulmonary Hypertension Association, and now I’m getting ready for conference! I’m definitely excited to meet some of y’all there.

Moving on! Today is national Pulmonary Hypertension Awareness Day. As y’all know, I want you wearing your Haley Ann shirt (if you have one) if not, wear purple! Take a picture and email me, and you could be featured on here or my facebook page. I’ll also be instagraming it up! You can find those two social media sites below.

facebook.com/phenomenalhaley

@haleyann92

About a month ago at a doctor’s appointment, I expressed some mental concern to my doctor. My anxiety level is high, and is definitely reflecting in my physical body because my emotions are so high-strung. His reply was very dignified, and he said, “I think you are very stressed, and very in tune with your body, so lets relax and not assume the worst.” His words actually  helped, except one small detail. I’m not in tune with my body at all. In fact, I feel as though I’m always fighting it. I want to be free; free from pills, needles, surgeries, check ups, oxygen, and its weird not to be able to do that. It’s weird that your soul is stuck…inside a defective body. I mean, really. For me, its been nothing but a disaster from day one of my existence. I’ve battled bladder, lung, heart, spinal, nerves, skin, and just about anything else. I know a lot of people out there feel this way too, and I’m definitely not special. Two weeks ago I was checked for skin cancer, and all I could think was, “Really? Haven’t I paid my dues?” At some point you just have to throw your hands up, and surrender.lungsrosesI’m not saying surrender to death by any means, but surrender to acceptance. Accept that this body is so fragile, and so beyond flawed despite its miraculous existence. The best thing you can do is step away, slow life down, and make time to care for not only your defective body, but your amazing self. YOU. Not just the body you are trapped in.Pulmonary Hypertension is a big, incurable, full-time disease. I don’t just suffer from it May 5th. I’m a year round, lifetime guaranteed customer of it. Take this one day to support those people who are caught in a trap.

-haley.

Song of the week! A much needed relaxing tune; So May It Secretly Begin by Pat Metheny

Fabulous Friday Favorites.

Happy Friday lovelies! You made it to the end of this week, we’re going to make it a fabulous weekend, and smile like crazies. 🙂 I don’t even know anymore. Its been a rough couple of days, but a week ago today I was in a hospital bed. I don’t know what can be worse sometimes? Needles, and people monitoring how much you pee, or dealing with people who betray you? Hmm. Anyways! Its Friday favorites time because it’s been a while, and I’m not quite feeling fashionable. For those of you who aren’t familiar with this type of post, I do it to encourage you to branch out and try new things! Soo, lets jump right into it!

 

MUSIC

I’ve been on a Fleetwood Mac kick like nobodies business. Seriously, they are timeless. When you want to feel happy, you can turn on a song like Gypsy, and when you feel like crying you can listen to Silver Springs. I’ve done my fair share of crying! And come on, Stevie Nick’s fashion? WHO can get over that? Purely amazing. I would love to be her, right now please.

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MAKEUP

This sounds crazy, but I got Chella blue eyeliner in my Ipsy bag last month. What is Ipsy? For ten bucks a month you get this cute little bag, and awesome makeup designed around your preferences delivered to your door. My bag for this month is on its way, and I’m excited! My first bag did not disappoint me! Primers, eyeshadow, then blue eyeliner. I know, you probably just rolled your eyes. I literally just read an article (I think in Glamor) about how blue liners are in style, and fun to play with. This brand of blue liquid liner is AMAZING! Goes on clean, easy to apply, and a fabulous shade. It looks very chic, and yes I wear it all the time. If you want to see what all the buzz is about on Ipsy, or join, you can check it out here: http://www.ipsy.com/r/7aj7. It’s a great deal, and a great thing to treat yourself to once a month, even for younger girls. 🙂

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BOOK

I’ve been attempting at getting involved on Hitrecord. If you’ve never heard of it, it’s an open collaborative company that was started by (the amazing) Joseph Gordon-Levitt. His ideas are brilliant, and what makes Hitrecord brilliant is these just aren’t his ideas. People from all over the world submit writings, pictures, designs, audio, videos, and they turn it into a TV episode, or create stories, or BOOKS, or songs. Its fantastic. Check it out if you’re an artist, or think you might want to contribute. I’m excited to read this open collaborative book that came out (three now, I believe) The Tiny Book of Tiny Stories.

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CLOTHING

I am so beyond obsessed with kimonos. They are so in style right now, and I hope they never go out of style. They make a statement, they’re comfortable, they’re artistic, they are everything. You can find one that I’m sure would interest your style pretty much everywhere. Forever 21, Etsy, and if you are willing to spend big bucks, Free People. Channel your inner Stevie Nicks, and sport a kimono.

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SHOW

My inner 90’s streak has been peaking through this month, and I’ve been watching 3rd Rock From The Sun almost nonstop. The humor is fantastic especially on a bad day! Sit down, and watch Joseph Gordon-Levitt’s sass mouth, and long hair cheer you up. I never thought alien humor could ever interest me.

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NAIL POLISH

This month has been so crazy that I don’t even have an official favorite nail polish picked out. But, I’ve been wearing nothing but bright pink on my nails to make me look tan. So, such brands as Piggy Polish, and China Glaze have great neon-like options. You do need to be prepared to have a glossy top coat ready (you should have that anyways) because they don’t say on the bottles, but most of these colors will dry matte. AKA, no shine. So, prepare thyself!

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MOVIE

I warned you about the 90’s streak….but I’m so in love with 10 Things I Hate About You. If you, or your daughter is having a sucky day, pop this flick in and enjoy Heath Ledgers adorableness, as well as Joseph Gordon-Levitt. Such cuties, and the perfect 90’s comedy. Rest in peace Heath.

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DRINK

Seriously, I haven’t been drinking a lot lately, or going out. I’ve hit an exhaustion period with my PH where all I want to do is lay around the house. However, when I did go out, my friend Jess always gets me a White Russian. Vodka, Kahlua, and milk. Delicious.

whiterussian

ITEM

Like I said, this has been a super chill month, and I wish I had better answers for y’all. But, my favorite and most used item this month would be my Betsey Johnson cards. I’ve been sending out Thank you to loves who have helped me, and what not, and I’ve loved writing actual letters. Plus, who wouldn’t be excited to write with a Betsey Johnson stationary?! You can find the collection at your local Michael’s store.

betseystationary

Okay loves! I know I wasn’t super exciting, but its the end of the week, and we are all tired! Celebrate, smile, and relax. Dont forget TODAY is the LAST DAY to participate in the current contest!! Check out the CONTEST TAB for more details!! 🙂

-haley.